Greetings and Salutations,
Well, I am finally ready to really dust off my white board (I have one set up in my den in a spot I see every day) and get some stuff done! I really don't have to dust it off. Since I moved in April alot has been accomplished but lately, I've been in a stall pattern. It's time to list things on the board in a way that greatly increases the speed in which they get done. As in git'r done! I have to make my goals SMART.
I'm still a bit overwhelmed with the laundry list of things to do in my journey to make San Francisco my home. Things still don't feel secure and real. Its getting better and of course it hasn't been long since I moved out here. I have well established patience with my personal life is a work in progress at best.
SMART goals (Specific-Measurable-Attainable-Relevant-Time based) really do help if you have never tried them before. For me I think I need to amend this to SMART ASS goals (Specific-Measurable-Attainable-Relevant-Time based-And-Short n' Sweet) LOL.
One of my biggest problems is that I make too many goals. This is just as problematic as not making any at all. Lately this has really caused grid lock with attaining success. It is adding to my overwhelmed state of mind because nothing is getting crossed off the list.
So damnit I'm rolling up my sleeves and digging in. Its time to get a few monkey's off my back. With this in mind and the next two days off here is the game plan:
Tuesday 7/29/2014
(1) SLEEP IN (for the love of all that is sacred I am not getting up before 0900!)
(2) Have secured parking place in The City by 12pm
(3) Go to paint store and decide once and for all on paint colors for apartment (3) and purchase bedroom color
After/If I do the above then The "B" List
(4) Prime bedroom walls
(5) Laundry
Wednesday 7/30/2014
(1) DMV: obtain California Driver's Licence and register truck and get tags (this has been the entire zoo on my back)
(2) Paint Bedroom
(3) Clean apartment
(4) Call and check on new health insurance to see if I got accepted yet (premium is due 7/31 for current ins)
(5) Move truck to her new home (parking space 3 blocks away)
After/If I do the above The "B" list
(4) any stragglers from Tuesday--if all done- RELAX and be sure to mark it down as a mental personal win for a successful 2 days and less monkeys in my personal zoo!
I think this will be a great start to getting some things off my list (aka my mind) and build some momentum that I have lost along the way. This list has been plaguing me for almost 2 months. I'm sick of the weight on my back. Its time to stop sitting around and get back to the path I was on before I left Charleston.
I want to be on that path again. It was just starting to get good. It was just staring to feel like a life I really wanted. Pottery classes, sewing lessons, jewelry making classes, biking, swimming, and blogging regularly. These are the things I must do to get myself back on track. I just need to break it down in more bite size pieces. Something more than work, sleep, couch, anxiety--repeat.
Tootles :)
Heather
Monday, July 28, 2014
Monday, July 7, 2014
Are You Going....To...San Francisco....
Greetings and Salutations from the West,
--This isn't my usual format for this blog. It is usually goal/task oriented. I'll get back to that. Today (7/01), this is what came out when I sat down. I made a conscious decision not stifle these thoughts. I have lots goals/tasks to do and funny stories of a life in the day of living in San Francisco. Those are to come. I hope this is a bridge to bring you from where I was to where I am. Oh what a difference 3,000 miles and the second most densely populated major city in the US can make!
Hi. I know I know. I've been a bad girl not blogging but for what it is worth, I have been a busy girl trying to get integrated into my new life and that has taken a hot minute! Writing has been on my mind every day because let me tell you one thing--There are about a million things to blog about out here in the b-e-a-utiful and crazy city of San Francisco and all that it entails. I keep saying tomorrow, tomorrow. I'll write tomorrow. Again I am reminded that lesson #1-- Start from where you are and work from there.
So I will start from where I am and see what else comes out. I'm in San Francisco. I lived here before, I think 2008 was the last time in the City. I have lots of experience out here. And I say that to say big deal and WOW. How different things look when you are here to live and not just vacation on a travel assignment!
I will be quick to admit that I thought this major move was gonna be a S-N-A-P. What crack was I smoking? (and BTW I don't smoke crack--its whack LOL) But I can also say thank goodness I didn't know how much I would struggle in the beginning because to change my mind, still at this moment not knowing how it will all work out, would be a life experience wasted.
Each day I am feeling better and better. I am slowly creating a life out here for myself. I think this move has brought up alot of grief issues with my mom. I can't tell her about the crazy ass things I see out here. I can't hear her say "Heather get you butt back to Charleston where you belong" LOL and then tell me how much she supports me and my decisions.
Most of all I can't hear her say how proud of me she is and my tenacity to follow my dreams no matter how isolated, scared, and unsure I am. That she loves me and believes in me. Never underestimate the power of those words "I'm proud of you" and tell them to your kids OFTEN. Tell your loved ones and friends. It does amazing things mentally. But especially from a parent. It can't be replaced when lost.
Basically everything I own is still back in Charleston in a POD. I want to get things flowing out here (money) and get rid of some debt before I tackle that part of the journey. And let me tell you this is a journey. I have been happy and excited. I have had Zen moments. I have also cried a ton. I have been depressed enough to not leave my apartment for days. And I have waited patiently (not really but it sounds good LOL) for the tides to change and for me to feel better.
The tides are changing and I feel better. And it is building. Its headed in a great direction as it has been, but I am beginning to trust it. Trust my dreams. Trust in myself on a deeper level. Trust the journey. There are still lots of unknowns, but I am tackling each one to the best of my ability.
About 2 weeks ago I worked myself up into such a lather (not of all my own doing-- I had an outside contribution) I basically white-knuckled it to the point of giving myself the vapors. The next day, when I came to my senses (and sobered up) I heard one word control. and then I understood--let go. I believe that this is the lesson I'm supposed to learn thus far where I am at this stressful and transitional time in my life.
What can I control? Me and my response to the situation at hand. Take the "List" and choose what I can do in THAT moment even if I should be doing something else. Try to my best ability to do what needs to be done, resolve it, and move on. Recognize the victories, not just the failures. Let it happen before I react as if it (what ever "it" is) has already happened. Most of what we fear may happen doesn't. I know this, buts it difficult to live by every day. And if I can't get it done. If my stress level is too high, wait it out. Be on the look out for the moment the opportunity comes I can get back on track. That moment when I can catch my breath.
And come back it will. Its the best part of life. Wait it out, work hard, show up, and don't give up. It will come around. You just have to be ready, open, and on the lookout for it to happen.
Tootles :)
Heather
--This isn't my usual format for this blog. It is usually goal/task oriented. I'll get back to that. Today (7/01), this is what came out when I sat down. I made a conscious decision not stifle these thoughts. I have lots goals/tasks to do and funny stories of a life in the day of living in San Francisco. Those are to come. I hope this is a bridge to bring you from where I was to where I am. Oh what a difference 3,000 miles and the second most densely populated major city in the US can make!
Hi. I know I know. I've been a bad girl not blogging but for what it is worth, I have been a busy girl trying to get integrated into my new life and that has taken a hot minute! Writing has been on my mind every day because let me tell you one thing--There are about a million things to blog about out here in the b-e-a-utiful and crazy city of San Francisco and all that it entails. I keep saying tomorrow, tomorrow. I'll write tomorrow. Again I am reminded that lesson #1-- Start from where you are and work from there.
So I will start from where I am and see what else comes out. I'm in San Francisco. I lived here before, I think 2008 was the last time in the City. I have lots of experience out here. And I say that to say big deal and WOW. How different things look when you are here to live and not just vacation on a travel assignment!
I will be quick to admit that I thought this major move was gonna be a S-N-A-P. What crack was I smoking? (and BTW I don't smoke crack--its whack LOL) But I can also say thank goodness I didn't know how much I would struggle in the beginning because to change my mind, still at this moment not knowing how it will all work out, would be a life experience wasted.
Each day I am feeling better and better. I am slowly creating a life out here for myself. I think this move has brought up alot of grief issues with my mom. I can't tell her about the crazy ass things I see out here. I can't hear her say "Heather get you butt back to Charleston where you belong" LOL and then tell me how much she supports me and my decisions.
Most of all I can't hear her say how proud of me she is and my tenacity to follow my dreams no matter how isolated, scared, and unsure I am. That she loves me and believes in me. Never underestimate the power of those words "I'm proud of you" and tell them to your kids OFTEN. Tell your loved ones and friends. It does amazing things mentally. But especially from a parent. It can't be replaced when lost.
Basically everything I own is still back in Charleston in a POD. I want to get things flowing out here (money) and get rid of some debt before I tackle that part of the journey. And let me tell you this is a journey. I have been happy and excited. I have had Zen moments. I have also cried a ton. I have been depressed enough to not leave my apartment for days. And I have waited patiently (not really but it sounds good LOL) for the tides to change and for me to feel better.
The tides are changing and I feel better. And it is building. Its headed in a great direction as it has been, but I am beginning to trust it. Trust my dreams. Trust in myself on a deeper level. Trust the journey. There are still lots of unknowns, but I am tackling each one to the best of my ability.
About 2 weeks ago I worked myself up into such a lather (not of all my own doing-- I had an outside contribution) I basically white-knuckled it to the point of giving myself the vapors. The next day, when I came to my senses (and sobered up) I heard one word control. and then I understood--let go. I believe that this is the lesson I'm supposed to learn thus far where I am at this stressful and transitional time in my life.
What can I control? Me and my response to the situation at hand. Take the "List" and choose what I can do in THAT moment even if I should be doing something else. Try to my best ability to do what needs to be done, resolve it, and move on. Recognize the victories, not just the failures. Let it happen before I react as if it (what ever "it" is) has already happened. Most of what we fear may happen doesn't. I know this, buts it difficult to live by every day. And if I can't get it done. If my stress level is too high, wait it out. Be on the look out for the moment the opportunity comes I can get back on track. That moment when I can catch my breath.
And come back it will. Its the best part of life. Wait it out, work hard, show up, and don't give up. It will come around. You just have to be ready, open, and on the lookout for it to happen.
Tootles :)
Heather
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